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I’m losing my mind. This might be a long one…

I don’t really know where to start except that my kidney function testing is progressively getting worse. I’m not diagnosed with anything kidney related but I do have a plethora of other health problems. This has been slowly happening over the last two years.

My creatinine rate has been higher than normal since 2022. Every time it’s been tested since then it’s been getting progressively higher. My Glomerular Filtration Rate has been in the normal range this whole time but it has also been going down consistently. That’s the direction you don’t want it to go. My electrolytes have been fine this whole time.

With those test results, I’ve been also experiencing physical symptoms. I have a random pain on my back, only on the right side, right under my rib cage. It comes and goes but it’s been getting more painful when it does comes around. Also, I’m constantly dehydrated even though I drink over 60 oz of water a day. And TMI but my urine is so clear I could compare it to something funny but I have no idea right now. I don’t understand how it’s so healthy but the rest of my body is dehydrated. Lastly, my blood pressure has been weirdly low too. One time I clocked it at 95/66. It gets worse when I stand up along with room spinning.

I have been obese since I was 9 years old, if you don’t remember. I already have obesity related disorders, type 2 diabetes, GERD, and more. The funny part is that I’ve been on Ozempic for the last 1.5 years and have lost 50lbs. That is supposed to help kidney issues but for some reason, it has been revealing mine.

I have seen three doctors of varying specialities and everyone is punting it to a different specialist. I finally got a kidney ultrasound scheduled but OF COURSE insurance wouldn’t let it be until at least 10 days out. Thankfully I had a physical scheduled for later this month already. The ultrasound ended up being three days before my physical which is in over a week from today.

This whole experience has caused me so much anxiety especially since I have such a long history of medical trauma. Ever since I was 14 years old when my gallbladder failed and it took over a year to get me into surgery. All the test results were normal except I would faint if I ate anything fatty. Thankfully my mother kept bothering the doctors until they finally decided on surgery. Once they got in there, they found how deteriorated my gallbladder was and it was removed. I was 15 by then. It scarred the hell out of me and to this day every time I experience a dismissal from a doctor, I tailspin.

I get to live in pain, dehydrated, and dizzy for another 10 days. And even then, we may not get the answers. I want to give thanks to Google for all the information I’ve collected so far, since my doctors never picked up on the pattern, I had to.

I guess that’s it really, other than it’s the end of our lives as we know it thanks to that election. But, I can’t face that yet.

Thanks for making it this far, dear reader. Take care and best wishes of health to you all.